The ugly!

This week has been one CrAzY week! Its been filled with unexpected doctors appointments, a fussy baby which equals sleepless nights, trip to Saskatoon on snowy, icy roads, a cranky wife and cranky husband! This is exactly why I started this blog, to sit down and put into perspective my days or weeks. Today was a prime example of the "ugly" of The good, the bad and the ugly.

Lastnight, my 2 month old son went to bed at 10:30pm. I decided to stay up til 11pm to finish watching The Voice (my guilty pleasure!) I crawled into bed and was woken up at 3:30 to hungry Henry (pretty typical). I went into his room, fed him, and put him back to bed. I walked, sleepily, back to bed and was woken up 15 minutes later to a fussy baby...go back in, burp him, clean up the baby puke, burp him again, swaddle, rock, put him to bed. Go back to bed and am woken up an hour later to do the same thing. Then again another hour later (at this point I wake up my husband and make him do the rocking but I lay in bed listening to it all on the monitor...damn motherly instincts!). He comes back to bed, we fall asleep and Henry wakes up at 7 needing to eat again. I nurse him, burp him, wipe up puke, change his diaper, rock him, put him to bed. Go back to bed, 8:30 am my almost 3 year old son walks in "MOMMY, its morning time!" and so begins our day!

Now, let me explain to you what lack of sleep can do to me...I either become delirious and laugh at everything, I either become a raging b*tch or I become overly emotional and cry at everything! Today was actually a lovely mixture of all 3! But in that moment of sleeplessness in the middle of the night you find yourself rocking your baby and thinking of all the people who have said to you "sleep is overrated" and you get the bitter taste of anger in your mouth. Or as I am walking out of the bedroom for the 19th time of the night and I see my husband, sound asleep I feel the urge to throw a pillow at his sweet, precious, sleeping face! And how fitting that tonight I read a blog which was a test for people who think they want to have kids! It was written with humor and made me laugh out loud and also say "Amen to that!" Here is one example which was fitting for me today:

Test 3: Nights

To discover how the nights will feel:

1. Walk around the living room from 5pm to 10pm carrying a wet bag weighing approximately 4 - 6kg, with a radio turned to static (or some other obnoxious sound) playing loudly.

2. At 10pm, put the bag down, set the alarm for midnight and go to sleep.

3. Get up at 11pm and walk the bag around the living room until 1am.

4. Set the alarm for 3am.

5. As you can't get back to sleep, get up at 2am and make a cup of tea.

6. Go to bed at 2.45am.

7. Get up again at 3am when the alarm goes off.

8. Sing songs in the dark until 4am.

9. Put the alarm on for 5am. Get up when it goes off.

10. Make breakfast.

Keep this up for 5 years. LOOK CHEERFUL.

Now don't get me wrong. Being a Mom is pretty great. It has a lot of wonderful things too. Even on a day like today (or a week like I just had) I found something awesome in everyday. Even last night when I was so tired and Henry was fussy there was a moment of looking down at his little face and getting a big, gummy grin and for a brief moment the exhaustion disappears you feel happy! Then you get tired again.

One thing I can say for sure is that boredom is a word of my past! I am NEVER bored. With a 5 year old daughter full of spunk and attitude, an almost 3 year old who loves to be a superhero or a pirate and climb and jump and "hi ya" me, and a 2 month old baby who demands attention like all little babies do, I am NEVER bored. My days blur together but fly by all at the same time.

I guess when it comes to the end of the day - its like any Mom (or Dad) will say. Parenting is the hardest job you will ever do but its also the most rewarding. Are you ready for this? Here comes the gushy part (no more pillows being thrown at someones face)! The big gummy grins from my baby, or hearing my daughter say to me as I tuck her in "Mom, you're the best Mom in the whole world" or my son holding my hand as I lay in bed with him and hear him whisper "Mom, I lub you!" those are the reasons I wake up everyday (that and the monitor beside my bed that has a crying baby in it or the toddler who is standing by my head saying "its morning time!") Seriously, those 3 little people that my husband and I created are the reasons for my insanity, my hemorrhoids, my stretch marks, the bags under my eyes, my huge smile and full heart! Everyone says that this is the busiest time of my life and you know what, its true. Its busy and crazy and I couldn't imagine it any other way!