Being a Mom is hard! That is not a shocker. Somedays are draining, exhausting and may even leave you weeping on the couch while your husband plays hockey and your kids are asleep. It may leave you texting your best friend who lives miles away and your Mom and crying and laughing. It may leave you saying "I feel like a shitty parent" and having this response "Everybody feels like a shitty parent sometimes. I think anybody who says otherwise is either lying or in denial. You are probably the best mother I know. Your kids are lucky they were born to you. I mean it." I am not saying that is true, but in my moment of weakness, that is EXACTLY what I needed to hear. That is what all Mother's should do for each other. Support. (Unless you're that one who is lying or in denial...then you're probably judging! haha)
But truthfully, if you're a Mom, you're going to have the same days/evening that I am experiencing. Where poor behavior from your child will eventually wear thin on you and you will feel your blood boil. You will discipline and then quietly weep in a corner where no one has to see. You will clench your teeth so you don't raise your voice and accept a sad child's apology and say you love them but not cave on the punishment you have already said was necessary. You feel your heart breaking but are told you're doing the right thing. Being a Mom is hard.
I am here tonight, with red, puffy eyes and a sad heart saying "You can do it! You're a great Mom. Your child is lucky to have you." I hope that someone who reads this needs to hear those words and know that I mean them. Nobody is perfect. Not us and not our children. So, lets accept them and love them and discipline when necessary and do the same for ourselves.
Being a Mom is hard. But, tomorrow is a new day. I will start fresh and kiss each one of my perfectly imperfect children and pat my imperfect self on the back.
You're doin ok, girl. Parenting is the HARDEST job you will ever have in your life. It's also the BEST job you will ever have in your life. :)
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